Me where I am now

Very few people get to date their best friends and fewer still get the honor of fallin in love with that person. I was one of the fortunate ones. The only downside is that things happen and you are guaranteed nothin in this life. The video that I made is called Where I stood by Missy Higgins. It's all about a girl who has lost who and what she is. She is not sure of anything anymore. She begins a journey of self discovery which is where my life is now. Discovery.

I still love my best friend although life is weird without spendin so much time without him. But I am learnin a great deal about myself in the process. We are still friends that much has not changed I can say he is still the one I want to share my darkest secrets with. LOL (Corny I know) The only reason I share this now is I miss him greatly,but for now this break is what I need. Many of you have noticed a difference and I felt that if you were going to be prayin for me, you should know a lil more.

I heard the ANGELS! Did you?

Sunday morning was a lil different than what we are used to having. We celebrated Mel's B'day in jungle style, then we were off to church. We did not have a lesson but everyone was in high spirits. When we arrived down town they were doing road construction, so we couldn't park on the usual street. So I should have know this Sunday would not be a typical Sunday at least not for me. See I have been asking to hear the angels and I have been listening intently, problem was I was not focused.
They music started, I was excited to finally become involved in worship. I love it when Thalon plays for us!!!We sang several songs but the LORD was their and as we began to sing grace like rain, I heard the angels join with us!! The lead singer started talking about how when we get to heaven we would join with the angels to sing Hallelujah, which is what I had been talking about in my last blog.
I knew a secret, WE ALREADY WERE!!!! When worship is like that I never want to quit singing. Just wanted to share,
Peace

What to do with life?

Lately I have been struggling with what should I do? Where should I go? Where do I fit in? So during this time I have been kind of silent so to speak. So much of my self wants to leave Alabama far behind and never look back. I feel like I am on the edge of something huge, and I do not want to miss out. I was on the airplane coming home late Monday night, I remember thinking to my self you could go to New York the skies the limit for you. Why would I stay?
All my life I have always said when things go wrong I am leaving and never coming back. lol So I assumed that this is what I was doing this time too. Now I am not so sure. I truly long to see the world, me, my camera, and my "suitcase" (we have already established I can not be without that) lol. I feel like I can not be put in a box right now. I NEED MORE!! On this note I do not necessarily want to leave my business your my friends behind, Please understand I am having growing pains now.
So tonight we were praying at church and it was all about missionaries. A multitude of things started crossing my mind as to what was "relevant to me". This is what the Lord spoke back to me in several verses I will share.
The first one He shared was simply this: Revelations 4:7-11


7 The first living creature was like a lion, the second was like an ox, the third had a face like a man, the fourth was like a flying eagle.
8Each of the four living creatures had six wings and was covered with eyes all around, even under his wings. Day and night they never stop saying: "Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come."
9Whenever the living creatures give glory, honor and thanks to him who sits on the throne and who lives for ever and ever,
10the twenty-four elders fall down before him who sits on the throne, and worship him who lives for ever and ever. They lay their crowns before the throne and say:
11"You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being."

Now I am sure this means something different to just about everyone, but here what I was told tonight. About five years ago on a Sunday night we got together and were singing to the Lord. There was only about 6 of us but you could not tell it. The Lord opened my ears and I heard the angels join with us and sing. I guess it must have been about two or three weeks later when I wanted to hear them again. I craved to hear the beauty of their voices join with ours. The door opened to the sanctuary. We all turned no one was there. This happened two or three more times each time no one was there, when finally the Lord said to me Stop looking Angela and Listen and your ears will be open to hear the angels sing!! See the angels never stopped singing I stopped hearing because I lost my focus! He spoke to me tonight and said I may not sing on this earth one more time or I may sing hundreds. But this one thing is for sure I have a place in the choir with the angels anytime I just have to listen!

One last verse and I will close I am long winded tonight but I wanted to get it all out while it was still fresh in my mind! Joshua 1:6-9

6 "Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them.

7 Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go.

8 Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.

9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

The Lord has already promised us the "land" all we must do is take it in Jesus name. So sisters no matter where we are or what we are doing we must not be afraid the Lord of Hosts goes before us in battle and the victory is already won. Claim it in Jesus name. Wow I just got to shout!! I am victorious because I am daughter to the KING, the enemy has no hold on me or my sisters!! I speak freedom over our lives and circumstance!

Road trip..... Again (lol)

So I am flying to La today. (and no that is not lower Alabama) haha Anyway I am on the airplane watching a movie when there came this line out of no where. Saying simply this:
They jest at scars that never felt the wounds.
Some of you may know that saying it's from Romeo + Juliet so don't stop reading yet there is something for you. Now I felt like this was just an eye opener for me, right, because when you really start thinking about this one line context. It's pretty deep even for me. How many times have I told someone, "Suck it up. Be a man. Rub some dirt in it." When I had not felt the wounds just scoffed at the scars. So that's my thought for now. I am determined to think next time before I am so quick to give "advise". Since lately "someone" has told me quite recently that I am usually always in someones business giving some kind of advise. lol