I still have so much to learn!

Sunday. Since I was a lil kid Sunday's were always special or reverent. (not to be taken lightly) We were going whether we wanted to or not because it was the right thing to do! I can not remember a time my mom ever woke me up and said, "Angela, it's Sunday do you want to go to church or stay home?" Ha! So you could say my heart may have not always been in the right spot. I never thought about it, when I got back into church. I went because I wanted to learn. But I have to be honest, I was very caviler about it all. I was in the pew when the doors where open, but always took for granted that the church would always be there.

Well this was our last Sunday. The doors are not closing completely, there will be no more Sunday's though. How silly was I, to not cherish what we had built while we had it. That being said, I am looking forward to a new beginning away from mixed emotions and hurt feelings. The enemy is sneaky. He came at me in ways I was not looking for and devastated me many times through this process. As I am sure many of us are feeling the same things. Stupid devil! Man would I have done things differently.

For those of ya'll who know me, music is pretty much my life and how I communicate with others. When that was taken away, I thought to myself, Its okay. The Lord will not leave me. What I did not get was something so simple it shames me to admit it. I was okay with not singing on stage or in front of a bunch of people, but what was hard is not knowing the songs or maybe the style was not quite our own. You would have to understand that we had praying and developing our worship to Lord for a good many years. I felt I no longer had any thing to offer. If I could not worship through song, how would I hear what the Lord was saying?

The enemy was busy in the first couple of months, telling me all sorts of lies as to why I should and could leave and not be apart of what was to happen next. Let me tell you what the Lord said to me!

1. I am learning new ways to communicate. He taught me songs. (Two of which are one this one!)

2. New beginnings are not always bad. (maybe I might have been Simon instead of Peter huh)

3. It's okay to be scared because I am not alone.

4. Rhapa will heal all wounds.

5. If God is in it, I want to be there.

6. He gave me guidance through men that will soon become my pastors.

So am I sad that we will no longer be open on Sundays? Absolutely, BUT not because I do not think that I am being lead to Mosaic. Because I hurt for a ministry to reach people for the Lord in that community. I still have faith that when the time is right He will appoint someone or something there. And His full glory and power will be revealed for all to see!!!

I will leave you with one last scripture before I go.

For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes 1:18